I feel really inferior.

firstly, thankyou to all teachers and friends who have been supporting me every since i became the headprefect. your simple 'jiayou' really brings my spirit up. there are always nice people who will come to me and ask about my emotional post. im sorry for making you people worry, but this is the only place i can spill everything out.

and yes. i do feel horrible whenever you do that to me. like god. if you thought i am so incompetant, why did you allow me to become the headprefect? it really hurts whenever you get rejected all the time. do my idea seriously suck? or should i just turn into a boring, lifeless human? yes. there are lovely teachers who are truly supporting me. and i really cherish them. but, what about you? your support means a lot to me. like seriously.

with all my horrifying grades, im really falling into a deep dark hole. please, i just wanna do well.