i think im on the verge of getting depression..

all the stress and pressure are absorbing whatever i have away. its like a vampire, draining away all your blood. i dont know how long can i continue. its really tough. very tough. i live in negativity. its horrid. my world is no longer covered with lush of greens. its now a black, demonic world. *EFFF.

everything that used to be for the love became a burden. maybe i wasnt striving for the best, instead i was greedy, too afraid to lose. my better week aint coming really soon. what am i suppose to do? everything isnt going my way. NOTHING ok. i dont know how am i going to do well in my exams, i dont know how to complete choreography by next week. i dont know how to make my prefects listen to me. i dont know how am i going to ask them to tuck in their blouses/shirt or wear their ties. i dont know how am i going to have the energy to stay awake. i dont know how to wake up at 5.30 to do back exercise. SHIT IT ALL.

I MISS BEING AN ORDINARY! i wanna be normal. i wanna hangout after school. i too wanna tuck out my blouse for all i care. i wanna take out my tie. i wanna scream and shout for all i care. i wanna go running around with my friends. i wanna do what i want to do. but, i cant. hazel has been restrained. well, great responsibilty comes with great suffers i guess.

MY LIFE SUCK .


(im sorry for this emotion-trashing post. D:)

dont ask me whats wrong, these are the wrongs. but i cant do anything. why not you present me with a solution instead of a question? PLEasE?