Hazel's feeling really confuse. there are like so many things going on.

i'm getting really tired of growing up. as days pass, the more mature i get. yes i might still laugh at my own jokes and scream whenever spongebob is on tv. i cannot deny that hazel is growing up. CANT I JUST CONTINUE BEING THE NAIIVE GIRL?

i hate the fact that money really plays a big part. this was the first time i lost my temper in the hospital. what the fuck is wrong. i've been going back to the bloody hospital for checkup. fuck the doctors. what have they been doing? first you say its the nerve problem thus scaring the ass out of my parents. then u say its nth big, its scoliosis. and i went for lile 2 x-rays. then the doc say no, its not. maybe its the muscle. and when i back today, the doc said ' i think it might be smth serious, i suggest you to have a MRI scan'

OH FUCK YOU. wasnt that the initial plan. do you know how many fucking hundred of dollars i've spent on my fucking back. OH FUCK THE BACK. whats wrong with me.

fyi ppl, do you know how much the bloody mri scan cost? $350-$460 FUCK YOU. what's this. the scan better show some results to solve my back problem. DARN IT. i've spent almost a $1000 on this fucking problem. and hey, my family aint rich ok. its bloody hard earn money ok.

what's with SG's healthcare system. there i am learning about the efficiency of SG's healthcare FUCK IT. this is call efficient? best thing is, $350-$460 has been SUBSIDISED. oh ass lah!

the nurse told us that it is not very common for ppl to pay $460. FUCK YOU. and when we us if there are further subsidy. the nurse replied. ''you may opt out. and take medication. but you still wont know the cause, or you can do physiotheraphy, but ya uh you still dk the cause.''

OH FUCK YOU. YOU ANSWERED YOUR OWN BLOODY QUESTION. DUMB OR DUMB?

fuck the doctors.


pardon me for my harsh language. I CANNOT KEEP THIS ANYMORE. fuck the health sector