frankly, it has become a hobby, w/o it, its pain and suffering. im no longer independent.. it has become a need, its like a drug. i cannot go on anymore....

sigghs maybe i'll feel better after posting but yeah... i cant say much. i hate this emo-ish feeling! maybe this is the answer to everything. stop thinnking that you are a know-it-all hazel ang. stop infering whatever others say or do. you may not be correct ok. wake up. its over. those you dreamt of belongs to fantasy! it will never happen. please, wake up.. siggghhhhhs how eassy it is to say but not do it. its ok.

ita gonna be over really soon, just hang in there hazel (: STOP ALL PLANS FOR GOD'S SAKE!