how much more silly can i get?

i shrewed EVERYTHING up!

its no longer the same.


am i suppose to be happy?

where is all my confidence?

im trying SOOO hard to search for everything i lost throughout my journey.!

im not convinced.

not convinced AT ALL!

what the hell is wrong?

i thougth i have finally kept everything. but one look and all these sufferings i endured is gone. one simple word and it has all vanish. im back to square one again.

yays? ):

it hurts soooo much. why dont i even have the courage to ask ''are you ok? or take care''. will it kill me?

but somehow i know the reason why im not doing it, will it even make a difference to him?

NO. NEVER.

he dont need me to say''rest well. take a break. get well soon. go sleep now.! hurry! gogogo! take care!''

these aint my lines. i cant find it in my script. so why should i bother trying to snatch someone elses' lines?

i wont feel better yeah? =/

hahars, welcome to reality hazel ang. life aint so beautiful. im glad you had the courage to explore.

swollowing every single bit of sorrow hurts. it kills. im suffering.

i dont deny...

glad that something in me couldnt change.

i canNOT hide my feelings

YAYs!...................

*sighs*

even if i noe this isnt in my script, and the director of this story is gonna say ''CUT! retake! hazel ! how many times must i say?! you are not the leading lady! so stop snatching lines from this pretty young talented lady whose the leading lady!''...


PLEASE TAKE CARE.



sorry for a emotional post. (:

toodles