hello.

ok im emo.

i promised myself that i will cry as much as i want until i fall asleep and wake up feeling as hyper and happy as usual. but i broke my promise. i didnt. i woke up feeling as bad as yesterday and maybe even worst.nothing seems to be right and some how i cant trust any single one. its like i kept feeling betrayed and i know trouble is right ahead. i may still laugh and joke but deep down im bitter. shattering away. YES i need comforting words. but whats the point of telling me how much u care and want me to be happy when it is all just rubbish that isnt true anyway?...why are people always hurting at 1 go? i told myself i MUST be strong.but i am not. so i broke my own promise first. i guess its all ME. ME.ME.ME.ME.ME! how can i blame others for hurting me by breaking their promises when i cannot even keep promises made to MYSELF. yes thats how fucked up i am. im sorry georgina. i was wrong, everyone doesnt deserve the word fucking except for the person who told me, me. im just soo soo tired. can this just be a horrifying dream so i can wake up soon? please? i will be going to qingdao tommorow but im so fucking emo and sad. but will my tears bring away my sorrows? will a hug bring away my sorrows? what will? nothing? will sorries help? i dunnoe. im tired.

LEAVE ME ALONE