HAHA i have craving for qingdao rice! .__. lol ok this is darn random. ><  im telling you! china has the best rice! LOL but its sad that they hardly serve meat. (according to qingdao trip. heezz) wanted to blog the pics, but i think the whole file is in the other com. DAMN. haha. so back to what i was saying, apparently, they serve lotsa veggies and seafood. the amount of meat served was soo limited that hazel actually loved their sweet and sour pork! HAHAs fyi, im not a sweet and sour lover. LOL it tasted great for a moment. ;DD

oh and,

HAZEL WAS AWAKE FOR THE WHOLE

DAY! LOLS

WEDNESDAYS SIMPLY ROCK. lessons are relatively light, and there’s dance! if only everyday is wednesday. teehee.

stretched like a furball. HAH ok, weird use of word. but I LIKE-YYY lol.stress alright! teacher had high expectation on me (well of course, since im the chair. ><) phew. glad its over! shalalalala~ ok. im tired. not in the mood to continue.

TEEHEE

ok, my title totally explains it all. haha~

I HAVE A DOG AND A CAT LIVING UNDER THE SAME ROOF.
and obviously, they cant really work with each other. LOL,

oh my dear girl, please take care of yourself ok. please promise me you will be safe.  idk how am i going to help u or keep you safe. but please. protect yourself. you might not see this, or might not even noe its you. but if ure to ask me to sit back and watch u get hurt, it would be impossible. its physical and mental hurt my girl. im not gonna let it happen to you. please my dear girl ><

sometimes, i just wonder if you can be part of my life again. HAHA. i dont care if those memories were of less than a month. all i want is to experience it all over again. just one more time, before i let go.


please?

GREETINGS. to my family, friends, neighbours, schoolmates, teachers, random people and strangers!

:D guess what. i forgot what i wanted to say .__. this is stupid. HAH it always happen when i think too much!

oh well, shall start on smth cute then. my bro brought his girlf’s cat over to my house. (since she will be renting my brother room. [wadever!]) so xiao ji (the cat) was a little afraid of my overly excited mahjong. Ok, im kinda lazy, not in the mood to write in details.

oh yes oh yes.! its kinda amusing seeing that many people are aware that i was feeling horribly stressed up last week. WOW, i think the only way they could find out was thru the blog. its cooool lahhh~ haha. didn’t know people would even bother looking at what a plain-ol-hazel have to say.

 

COOL TO THE MAX YOH!.

anw, zhongyong, haikal, remy, tzy, rain, me, wes and zizhong found a gold ring ! LOL apparently it was worth 200 bucks. cool uh! D: but i didnt want the money. it dont belong to me aye. >< so plan to donate the money to charity. haha

 

GOOD KHARMA !! lol.

ok, im lazy. dont bother

changing the font size. LOL im

off to catch

har-li-buo-te! :D bye pplzzz. lol.

 

lame. ._.

Yes, i noe im faraway from the picture and i shouldnt be a busybody, however, this is something thats rather bothering. and i believe i have the rights to speak, w/o being called a cyber bully.

yes, its wrong to blog about horrid stuff, however being a leader. i believe you should at least look at the problems both side first right? ultimately its important to be neutral no matter how innocent or helpless the other party appears to be. of course im in no position to voice my comment, but hey. you should at least care about the feelings of two sec sch girls especially since you're already of a legal age right?


damn, this pisses me off. its just so stupid. so the verdict is, to stay away from such org. (well of course not because of the people, but the structure.) D:

im no longer sure of what i want. this is weird. bloody weird.

both ways are not going to work out, then why do i care so much?!


i shouldnt be thinking about this now, i should be focused. like really focused.

SHIT.

on my way home, i had sudden craving for icecream, so went to the provision shop to get my GREEN popsicle/ ice cream. the uncle was boasting about his fish and cheap shrimps he bought. Initially, i felt rather frustrated by his i-dont-care-about-your-$2.80-attitude. but after a second thought, i find it really cute. I have been living in simei for 10 years now, i've seen this uncle countless of times. He used to boast about his talented daughters who play tennis and golf really well. then he eventually stopped. (idk why)

well alright. the main point of me blogging was to talk about my lime popsicle/ice cream. i cant conclude whether its ice cream or popsicle as the outer layer is made out of lime flavoured ice but the inner layer is made out creamy white thing. LOl but anw, it brought back many memories. days where i wou;d beg mummy to buy me one and then i would regret buying it, cos i would have found another tastier icecream. i use to be very fickle minded and i always give up half way. HAHA but hazel aint the same anymore.







OH! and while talking to amanda, i realised. i havent been myself lately. and haikal chong is right, i shldnt care wat ppl think of me. (well, excluding weekdays) i shld be ME. thats how i made gd frens. thats how ppl get to know me, because im so ME. yeah. so i shld stop trying to be someone im not. *wink


feeling so ME,

( psss. the noob beside me is none other than haikal chong. :D)

ah, ok hazel's emotional post are over. *punch both fist up*

im currently feeling rather brain dead. Dx

is this the emo-season or what? everybody seem to be suffering from bitterness. sighsigh adolence..

ohoh! dance is going really well *do visa card dance* YESSS! please pay attention to national day alright.

WHOOOPIEEEEE :D


*star jumping*
HAZEL.

i think im on the verge of getting depression..

all the stress and pressure are absorbing whatever i have away. its like a vampire, draining away all your blood. i dont know how long can i continue. its really tough. very tough. i live in negativity. its horrid. my world is no longer covered with lush of greens. its now a black, demonic world. *EFFF.

everything that used to be for the love became a burden. maybe i wasnt striving for the best, instead i was greedy, too afraid to lose. my better week aint coming really soon. what am i suppose to do? everything isnt going my way. NOTHING ok. i dont know how am i going to do well in my exams, i dont know how to complete choreography by next week. i dont know how to make my prefects listen to me. i dont know how am i going to ask them to tuck in their blouses/shirt or wear their ties. i dont know how am i going to have the energy to stay awake. i dont know how to wake up at 5.30 to do back exercise. SHIT IT ALL.

I MISS BEING AN ORDINARY! i wanna be normal. i wanna hangout after school. i too wanna tuck out my blouse for all i care. i wanna take out my tie. i wanna scream and shout for all i care. i wanna go running around with my friends. i wanna do what i want to do. but, i cant. hazel has been restrained. well, great responsibilty comes with great suffers i guess.

MY LIFE SUCK .


(im sorry for this emotion-trashing post. D:)

dont ask me whats wrong, these are the wrongs. but i cant do anything. why not you present me with a solution instead of a question? PLEasE?

HAZEL CAN DANCE HAZEL CAN DANCE HAZEL CAN DANCE!!!!

H A Z E L C A N D A N C E ! ! ! ! ! !

3 CHEERS!

(to show my joy, i would love to make the words bigger, but i cant find the thingy thing i use. darn!)

SCREAM WITH ME,

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! *sticks tongue out and scream!*

-although i will have to endure the pain after that.

yes. i can do pe! but damn, how am i going to do my 2.4 when i havent been running for 6 mth?! oh shit. ><

DAMN. i think i creep myself out lah. can’t believe i’ve been such a bother. its like everything has been my own imaginations. my own guessing. nothing is true my dear hazel.  damn. im just plain stupid. hey, i wonder if you are aware that im talking about you? 

SILLY OLD ME. D:

saddening uh, well hazel. thats life. and its sure to turn out better. it always do. i guess.

 

NU REN.  dont cry too much alright. HAZEL IS GONNA LOVE YOU TILL ETERNITY <3 get that ****er to scram man. such poop! >[ you deserve somebody gazillion times better! take your time, but promise to move on alright? :D

ok,  shit i forgot what im suppose to say. .__. is this black? or grey? HAHA. my week had been horrible. please let something better take over the sorrows. please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please.  but please allow rain to go first. she can have my better week. just make her stronger. HAZEL CAN WAIT.!

oh yes, i remember it now. there is this guy whose rather stalker-ish in fb. he comments on mostly everything i do. D: yucky. LOLS (i hope he doesnt see this) fyi, i have biscuit crumbs all over me. (?!!?)

 

I was randomly browsing through my msn contact list when i saw one of my beloved friend’s nick.  (shall not name the person or they are gonna couple-corner me again) *shiverrrrs* LAUGHS. I just find these people being in love. It some how makes me happy too. its just really cute. its like you can sense the innocence in a pure, simple relationship, when 2 sees a great future ahead of them. aint it just so sweet?

On the contrary,  it makes me feel so painful whenever i see a couple falling apart, its sad. i mean like they once felt so in love and so blissful, but no matter how much they cherish each other, something is gonna happen and break them apart. dont you think it breaks your heart to see a couple like that?

ok, i think my different colour thing is like annoying. ;D but its suppose to show my different mood. LOL im so full of crap. so in conclusion, ok, idk .___>

oh yes, my day was really trashed. i definately wasnt angry neither did i blame you guys. its just painful to know that your very own friends wont listen to you. i felt like an incompetent loser. it was awful. thankyou rain for helping me <3 it was really nice of you. and im sorry guys for walking off like that. i didnt wanna break down in front of you. it would be horrid. D: haha im such a loser. DAMN. 

thank you poopie and shimin for running after me. it sure was embarrassing but i understand you guys meant well. thankyou girls.

and thankyou raymond for your kind words. i totally appreciate it. thanks! and glad your week had turned for the better.

i told you life will turnout

better after sufferings! :D

CHEERS.  (oh and happy birthday my baby mahjong <3 )

 

i love it this way, and i would rather believe it the way i like it to be.

please, dont let it be wrong. i never wanna wake up from my sweetest dream boy.

 

AH ! i hate it when i suffer from PMS moments. >< i swear it is irritating ok.

eg, i shifted my lappy 3-5 times  just to find a right position but basically there aint any diff. HAHAHA!

and i took out my 3 poa ws , placed it on my bed. rolled around for a LONG time. took it up. looked at it. place it back NEATLY into my spongebob file. HAHAHA (pms symtoms)

SHIT.! I  just dropped my spongebob bottle into this hole. –.- AHHH. dont bother! LOLS see see see!

hopefully these greens will make me happier. :DDD

i just found this rather amusing,



" V says: "
HAHAHAHA WOOHOO! I'll lose weight for him

LOL!

cheeers

im really feeling very frustrated and lost. and i really need a place to let it out, however the blog is never personal and will never be. especially with new expectations to meet, hazel can no long do as she wish.


well. this was what i chose. serve you right hazel ang. aw man. i really need a moment to let it all out. is there anyone whose willing to listen?


HAZEL DREADS THIS!!!


im scared. and i really dont know what to do.

Somehow, idk why, many people around me are like in love. sweetly inlove. rain and her boyf, leonard and qiting, joyce and richie. LOLs.

sometimes, ocassionally i envy these couple. well, there ARE times where you feel the loneliness and long for somebody to share your joy and tears with. however, there are also times where i simply enjoy being single. HAHA. well, all thanks to adolence, i have to endure such mix emotions. D:



sadly, i only met you after i chose my path. since its already too late, i know i have to move on and enjoy every single bit of it. too bad hazel, HAHA if only i met you earlier, would things be different? lol.




oh and my girl, please protect yourself ok. although i might eventually forget you or smth, i really wanna see you safe and happy. please dont do anything you're gonna regret in future. <3


HAZEL.

1) Who was the last person you texted ? vivian liew fatass ;D
2) Who was the first person that texted you today ? DAD. -,-
3) Who was the last person you last met ? MUMMY <3
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ? HAHA under certain circumstance yes.
5) What time did you went to bed last night ? 4 am HAHA. was blogging about mum until the lappy went looney ><
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ? like many?
7) Do you want someone dead ? nope. world peace *twist*
8) What are you thinking right now ? what should i write here? LOL
9) Who was the last person you took picture with ? poopie tan ying hui x8
10) Do you wish someone was with you right now ? HAHA! yes. >< *blush* lol
11) Who are you talking to right now ? vivian on sms, kaiwen on msn. (the other ppl online didnt reply .__.)
12) What does the last message say ? '' remy! lol why not. haha '' to poops
13) Is someone in your mind ? wah lao. idiot lah. YESSS
14) Who is complaining to you right now ? vivian liew. ;D she and her ugly boy. LOL
15) 10 people tagged to do quiz:


1.ELYSIA (HAHA!)
2.AMANDA (HAHA!)
3.SHERLYN
4.RAYMOND
5.CHERYL WONG
6.CLAUDIA
7.REMY
8.CHIAWEI
9.ELDON
10.VIVIAN LIEW

16) When was the last time you chatted with 3 (Sherlyn) ? friday!
17) What if 5 and 10 quarrel (cheryl and vivian) ? its gonna be hell HAHA but i doubt they will lahs.
18) Who is 1 having a relationship with (elysia) ? i think its fa mei shu or teyzeeeyeee. LOL
19) Is 9 fierce (eldon) ? i dont think so.
20) Is 3 & 4 studying at the same school (sherlyn and raymond) ? nope. sherlyn is my no life classmate while raymond is in rp, applied science. ARGH. that sucker! ><
21) Who is 2 to you (amanda) ?someone really precious, please stop hurting urself my girl. i dwanna see u die ok
22) How did you know 10 (vivian) ?HAHA dance! <333
23) When did you last talk to 6 & 8 (claudia,chiawei)? yesterday i guess?
24) Are you close with 7 (remy) ? average bah. clasmates for 3 yrs.!
25) How long have you know 1 (elysia) ? 3 bloody years! love my bestfren<3
26) What if 5 & 7 fight (cheryl and remy) ? HAHAHA then it will be scary. both are fierce. LOL
27) How long have you known 9 (eldon) ? 1 yr.! LOL
28) Say something about 2 (amanda) . hahas she very emotional de lor >< but she is really nice and precious to me <3
29) Is 4 trustworthy (raymond) ? yes, should be lah. haha nv shared secrets with him before. LOL
30) Who is 1 to you (elysia) ? HAHA my super precious dumb poopish bestfren <3
31) Do you argue with 7 everytime (remy) ? HAHA when we touch on the topics fat,ugly,noob,curly hair,flat,dumb. YES.
32) How well do you know 5 (cheryl) ? i would say very well bah. LOL she is like another precious woman to me <3
33) Do you know things about 1 (elysia) ? TSK. why always about her uh! ._. yeah. she wonders where is her prince charming. LOL D:
34) Is 2 & 9 schoolmates (amanda and eldon) ? yeaps. but amanda is from sec 3 while eldon is sec 4
35) What if 4 & 10 fight (raymond and vivian) ? they dont know each other. but if they do, i'll be in a dilemma! ><

When you think of Hazel, describing words that would come to you would be like, crazy,active,loud,noisy,boyish,crappy etc.



While we were sitting around the dining table last night, Leonard and Tzy was telling my family about the time where i made a boy cry when i was barely in sec one. (well, it wasnt TOTALLY my fault, the boy was rather wheeenie. LOL) so yes. it was an act of 'MACHO-NESS' and according to my mum, she once boxed a boy in the face and he went home crying. *ouch* so yes. first sign of alike-ness.

Next, hazel ALWAYS claim that she is really pretty,intelligent (whatever thats good) and her mum does the same too. During CNY, while my friends were over for table barbeque, mum came over and asked 'i am cuter than my daughter righttt?' and of course, everybody was shocked. me included. ><

One more, im always 'drooling' over ridiculously hot boys, for example my ever so hot lee min ho. alike, my mum has a hot idol too. he is ethan ruan. also known as ruan jing tian. this taiwanese actor is well known for his sex appeal and yes. my mum describes him as 'SHIOOOOK and SSSSSSSLURP' lol!

so verdict! im just like mummy! ^^




and well yes, i came up with a thankyou list. (on the spot ;D i'll try to come up with 50)
1. thankyou mummy for giving birth to me! (w/o this, i wont be able to have great friends!)
2. thankyou mummy for cooking superb food for me (fyi, mum's a chef.)
3. thankyou mummy for teaching me how to appreciate food. (with that, food is like god to me. X:)
4. thankyou mummy for making sure i look good as a lil girl. (i had lotsa suitors ok!)
5. thankyou mummy for taking plenty of photographs of me as a lil girl. (i have like 6 albums of memories!)
7. thankyou mummy for introduing me to dancing. (the first dance i learnt was chacha.)
8. thankyou mummy for caning me when i was a kid. (or i would turn bratty)
9. thankyou mummy for standing up for me.
10. thankyou mummy for always telling me what to do when i come home crying.
11. thankyou mummy for allowing me to sleep with her when i had nightmares. (i had creepy dreams as a lil girl!)
12. thankyou mummy for not scolding me when i fail my first exam. (i was super scared! p5!)
13. thankyou mummy for putting up with my brattiness. (i use to be horrid in sec 1)
14. thankyou mummy for not giving up on me.
15. thankyou mummy for showing that you care.
16. thankyou mummy for believing in me once again.
17. thankyou mummy for worrying for me.
18. thankyou mummy for being my first fans. (mummy loved my dancing)
19. thankyou mummy for telling me that im special.
20. thankyou mummy for supporting me. (she loves the fact that i love dance)
21. thankyou mummy for giving me so much money to spend.
22. thankyou mummy for being so cool. (my friends love her! <3)
23. thankyou mummy for being such a good sport. (she is super on de!)
24. thankyou mummy for being my bestfriend.
25. thankyou mummy for making me independent.
26. thankyou mummy for your life stories.
27. thankyou mummy for suffering so i can enjoy.
28. thankyou mummy for spending so much on my medical bills.
29. thankyou mummy for making me your princess.
30. thankyou mummy for being Hazel Ang Han Ling's mummy.



- ok i cant think of anymore. so im gonna do sorrys! -

31. mummy im sorry for doubting that you love me.
32. mummy im sorry for being so rude.
33. mummy im sorry for making you cry.
34. mummy im sorry for being so rebellious.
35. mummy im sorry for not listening to you.
36. mummy im sorry for opposing you.
37. mummy im sorry for not being strong enough.
38. mummy im sorry for not doing well in exams.
39. mummy im sorry for making you worry.
40. mummy im sorry for making your heartache (when you see me spending so much time in school)
41. mummy im sorry for being so messy (you have to nag at me all day to pack my room)
42. mummy im sorry for the fact that you have to work so hard.
43. mummy im sorry for not being able to help.
44. mummy im sorry for being so naiive.
45. mummy im sorry for lying.
46. mummy im sorry for being angry.
47. mummy im sorry for being rude.
48. mummy im sorry for spending so much.
49. mummy im sorry for disappointing you.
50. mummy im sorry that you have to suffer.



mummy, i really love you. now that im older, i could understand your pain. whenever i watch you work, i admire you. you always do your best. however, it really breaks my heart when i see you work so hard. mummy, thankyou. thankyou for putting up with my nonsense for 15 years. im sure it has been tedious. Mummy, im not going to let you down. not this time. mummy, im so sorry for quarrelling with you over nothing. im sorry for being so rebellious when i was in sec 1. im sorry that you had to worry for me EVERYDAY. i promise its never going to happen again. mummy, hazel is a big girl now. but i still need you mummy. you are like my cushion. someone for me to fall on and cry when im in trouble. someone whom i know is on my side. somebody who would tell me that i look horrible in this dress or tell me that i look like a moron with my new haircut. however, youre also someone who will tell me that you love watching me dance. or telling me youre proud of me for doing well. oh mother, you're someone i will never being.




3 CHEERS TO HAZEL'S MUM!
hip hip horray!
hip hip horray!
hip hip horray!

happy birthday, mummy. <3


(HAHAH mum is gonna kick my ass if she sees this! D:)

signing off,

i was feeling rather bored and emotional . *opens mouth widely*

ok i think im rather crazy, but i really felt like it. i tried posting something emo( look at previous post) but well, thats all i could manage. HAHA im not exactly happy, but im def not tearing anytime soon.

hey you, hazel ang. why are you not crying!

haha this IS silly haha. okay, actually i tried to emo (as in the crying and feeling all negative kind) because i felt sad for people who are heartbroken and for people who forgot how to love or anything. and also for teenagers for passing through heartbreaks. its sad you know, damn. LOL lol isnt the right word to use. .__.

i cant believe i actually forgot how to emo, i mean, i do have probs. and like bgr kinds. i think. well this is so silly. ADOLENCE!!


oh yes, i have to off topic for a little while. there is this zhoooomp zhooomp sound outside. and i swear it sounds rather scary, it sounds like some deadly machine coming to life. HAHA okay, maybe im just over reacting. you see, hazel is really timid, and she is scared of lotsa stuff. so yeah.


oh and MUMMY, I LOVE YOU! <333333


lotsa love,

if only you could appear right here. right now.

ants are like bitches! (ok weird description)

i feel like squashing them lah! they come so fast ok? kick their ass! ARGH.
and they make me feel so itchy! darn it. especially when u see them scurrying. but i promise not to kill :D

HAHA! holy hazel yoh! omg the ants are getting on my nerves ok. they are EVERYWHERE after PTF. OMGOMG. they are like on the com table, in my room. EVERYWHERE lo. grosss ><


I D O N T L I K E A N T S ! ! ! > <

school have been a pleasure (: well. most of the time. HAHA

hazel hosted her first prefects' meeting! and i swear its cool. like super excited to work with the sec ones okay! *screams*

ok, im like super tired so my brain is like 60% frozen. >,< oh! and hazel have been working hard. somehow, im like super motivated to study. rather random! Amaths was a pleasure, FOR THE FIRST TIME! OMG i feel like a smarty pants already! :D


and yeap, never felt this wonderful before. HAHA BATTERY! great to have a battery to boost you up. teehee. (you may like to ignore this)

OH! its mum's birthday tommorrow. cant believe she is 50 already. ;D she is gonna kick my ass if she finds out that i blogged about her age. *opens mouth widely to laugh* my mum aint the typical mum actually, she kinda go gaga over ruan jing tian. !
omg ok. its disturbing. and she claims that she have a suitor! i cant believe it ok. its MY mum. *gawd* alright, mum's story is a NEVER ending one. shall post it tmr, when its her birthday! <3

oh yes, went for lunch with elysia today. it has been a long time since i left school before 1. SHIOK ok. but i kinda prefer leaving at 5+6. okay, im getting no life you see. HAHA went to bakerzin. aint very nice actually. and the macarons. LOLs wanted to try it because it actually looks like spongebob's colour patties. LOLS







ok i seriously cannot take it anymore. im so tired. LOLs and damn it. im seriously getting no life. HAHAH


lotsa yawns,

i guess i finally agree with what raymond said. well he said cherish the friends around you, boyfs. can wait. (smth like that lah!) and yes. he is right. elysia is somebody really precious. but sorry, she is MY bestfriend. and gonna be for another milennia! :D

so what if she is a lil goondoo? she is the bestest of all. so what if she post about lame stuff to make me feel better? its the thoughts that count and whatever she've done is the sweetest thing . it might be a simple post of encouragement. Seeing that makes me stronger. thankyou elysia.


i use to think myself as a pathetic young soul, but hey, when i look around, i realise i have much more. so what if my back is killing me. having precious loved ones with me is like having millions of people patting on your back saying ''fret not.'' im glad i have you guys.


of course, elysia is reeally blur and dumb and irritating and goondoo and plainly noobish. i still love her. she is someone whose gonna support me whenever im in trouble. she once said ''if you wanna be headprefect, then go for it. i will support you'' it might seem rather plain here. but it means a lot to me. thankyou elysia tan ying hui!


oh and boys, if you dont want elysia tan. its your lost! so what if she is auntyish. she is the best bestfriend ever and the best wife in future! (although she cannot cook or wash or clean)

so, do you wanna buy my petite bestfriend? terms and conditions apply.

hazel is feeling really helpless. i hate the fact that i cannot be in control of my body. i hate the fact that idk what is happening in my body. whatever the doctors said are like rubbish to me. it dont even seem to make sense. everyone is telling me different things. i hate it. what exactly is happening? every doctor has their own explanation. i seriously hate being pushed around.

im sorry if you happily entered my blog and happen to see this long dreadful post. i really needed a space to let go.

i have been spending money on rubbbish. rubbish that i've heard more than 10 times. i hate it. why am i like that? why are terrifying problems always intefering my life. why must this ruin my life? especially when life seems perfect for me. when i am loving my life to the fullest. why must this happen? i dont even know whats wrong with the bloody back. if its really only going to heal in 5 years, idk how to live with it. maybe you can teach me? does anyone understand? although it doesnt kill my body, it kills my soul. it kills the hope in me. the dreams i have. the strength within me. besides, im sure it worries my parents and my no longer young grandma. i dont want them to see my pain. even my beloved mahjong understands that im in pain.

oh man. i have dreams people! do you understand? i cannot waste my time on healing my bloody back. fuck the pain. the doctor says it is no big deal. he see scoliosis patients everyday. but hey, do they get horrid numbness in their back and leg? i dont like this at all. i hate the pain. i hate it. i detest it. go away. i dont want to be injured.

hazel is an active person u asshole . hazel runs and jumps and go crazy. hazel cannot live with plainly walking. hazel is sporty. so what if she is never good at it? hazel still loves a game of soccer. or dragon boating. whatever. hazel loves the outdoors! i feel like a handicap. do you understand that i havent been going for pe for almost half a yr?! oh fuck it. if hazel have to give up dancing, i swear im gonna lose it for sure.

fyi, dance is the only thing i can call my talent. dance is the only thing hazel didnt give up. i would always remember my mum saying this 'why bother learning dancing when you're going to give up in less than 3 mths?!' but hey. it has been 7 years of dance. yes, it might not be very long. and i might not be really good at it. but it made me who i am. it groomed me. i didnt give dance up when i was bullied. it made hazel ang strong. it made hazel ang the chairperson of dance club today. it built me up. dance is part of me. im never giving it up. mum says i can resume dance after im alright. hey. its 5 years! FIVE BLOODY YEARS.

kill me if you could.