Hello all.

i feel like a bastard if i don't blog about the ever so super CEP'09. okay perhaps bitch. but bastard helps me make my stand. GAHHHH. stupid.

hahaha~ anyway, so camp was well. I can't really remember anything. It's like everything just came and go so fast, it flew off even before i could reach out. And now. i'll have to wait for another year for it to happen again!

so i shall not elaborate on the long old grandmother camp happenings. but rather, i would prefer to share my thoughts.

I mean if you're a camper/ organiser and you happen to see this, then obviously you'll know what i'm talking about. However, if you're some lousy person who DID NOT attend the camp, HAH. slap yourself in the face. too bad. xP

okay okay. so I remember every night we would sleep after 2am and wake up before 10am. Without sleep, Hazel would naturally become a walking grouchy zombie but because I know i have commitments and expectations to fulfill, I have to be that happy person im expected to be.

so behind closed doors, while i wash up, i would slouch and whine in sorrow. However, once i pushed open the kitchen doors, it was all smiles and cheerful. I make it a habit to smile brightly and greet my campers. Its feels kinda sour to me cos I was seriously feeling so dead, but well.

alright, Im rushing off. guess my post isnt sooo touching or what-so-ever. i cant process my thoughts. everything went too quickly. seriously.

DAMNED.

OOMPAH LOOMPAH FTW~~!!!

bahh. my blog is plain dead and sad. so guess perhaps its time to close it and say goodbye?

i mean, what's the point. I see no point in blogging and sadly tags are saddening too.

of course, i dont fancy tags like 'hello' and 'love you' etc etc. i mean i appreciate them but gahh.


nevermind. IM &^&#q-INGLY SICK! =.=

Tags on facebook is plain annoying and well, annoying.

It's only fun if you know everybody whose tagged ):

and and it's plain annoying when you're trying to checkout your friends picture cos they apparently have 700 pictures.

However sadly, 350 of them are TAGS.

LOL okay, im exaggerating. PLAIN ANNOYING LA.


but you know what's worst? those
'Jane's pretty. Ken's handsome, Elle's cunning etc etc . you know what I'm talking about right? lol.

i though it wasnt nice to label your friends. grr. dumb .

omg i think i sounded so bimbotic. BLAH. who cares.

ladidadida. GOODNIGHT!

I love to look at blogs with lotsa pictures!

i bet you do too right? but somehow, im just too lazy to upload it!

IT'S SO BOTHERSOME!.

nowadays, im lazy to even take pictures! oh yessss. that's how colourrrrful my life is.

GAHHH !#&^!@^*#%

life's pathetic T.T

anyway, i feel feverish. okay, no fever. my head feels heavy, its seems like it is attracted to the ground. i feel like my bones are shattering.

GAHHH. I GEDDIT. I'M NOT FEELING MYSELF TODAY! 0.0

anyway, let's wish our beloved cherryish cheryl wong a safe trip to shanghai! I HOPE YOU FIND DAI YANG TIAN'S TERRACE HOUSE! ;D lol

oh anddd HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELESTINEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! (lime green! teehee)

mmmmm! yummy-licious, charming mature Irish cassanova hunk, Gerald Butler.


YUMMY! *smacks lip*

oh goodness! where's everybody?





it seems like everybody's out except me. -.-








I'M BORED TO THE BONES!!!!!!





I miss my poopoo and teyzeeyee and richie and joycee ! D; hurry back you idiots!








LIFE IS PATHETIC.





can't believe im actually missing teyzeeyee and richie.-.-





come back now!





I HAVE NOBODY TO HANGOUT WITH!!!! ):





I miss the times where you are just 1 phone call away. 1 call and we're ready to catch a movie. okay, we wont be ready cos fat teyzeeyee will use 2 additional hours to do i-dunno-what, idiotic leonard will be acting hard to get with his see-how-first, retarded richie will be busy having dance lessons. shitty elysia will be acting guai with her i-think-i-dowan-go-out-larrr. while pretty hazel will be wasting her time watching mtv, bathing,drying her hair and just wasting time.



LOL. i miss hanging out D:





PATHETIC POTATOES!!!




Please come back this instance ):

YES. I finally have something to blog about! it's quite sad to know that there is NOTHING that excites you. oh goodness me.

so anyway, Dance camp was fruitful and I WAS OVERWHELMED! i mean, it is the first time i've organised a camp. Though it was simple, it was sincere. I didnt thought it was good anyhow, so i was pleasently disappointed with myself for NOT doing it again.

however, there was a sudden want to blog hopped, so i hopped around my dancers' blog. and oh hell. i almost cried. The girls were very nice and it was truly sincere. No 'its really good. really' like helloo. every idiot knows you're just being nice. I believe the girls meant what they said, at least i do hope they are. I believe the one who gained the most isn't the campers, its the GGL (good-group-leaders) who learnt the most.

This lesson they've learnt is more expensive than going for a $900 course or a year or math. This lesson they've learnt is more valuable than your first kiss, or the first time you fell in love.
It has NO monetary value at all.

it's something that has quietly , almost unknowingly punctured in you. It made you grow up, in a sense that now, you analyse things better, you've learnt how to give way to other people although it makes no better to you. But still, you willingly do it, because you know you have to, I'm glad the girls learnt how to be responsible.

For example, allowing the campers to bathe before you do. Its clear cut and it comes naturally when you're the leader. However, on every normal day, would you allow some random junior of yours cut your queue at the drink stall? NO. you're never allow it. It's the magic that works in camp. that's why i love camps. it works magic!

As for me, the amount of things i've learnt is so tremendous i cannot put it in words, in fact, i do not know exactly what i've learnt. However, i am very positive that i've grown in 101 ways in less than 24 hours.

Who would have thought that I, hazel ang could be stressed over tidiness. Who would have thought that I could actually manage and juggle a camp with less than 10 helpers. Who would have thought that the camp would be successful even without much teachers help. so here's my thankyous :

WanRu: thankyou for being behind me, giving me an extra push when i fall. Thankyou standing by although you practically have no voice at all. I hope you've learnt as much as i did. :D

Jean: Thankyou for getting out of your shell, joining in the camp spirit. I must say, initially, i was so afraid you would not get out of that shell and kept it in you. thankyou for being that great leader. You might not have realised, but girl, magic worked in you. You're more than just the jean goh we had now

Sonia : Thankyou for being that responsible and reliable girl i knew you were. Thankyou for proving me right. I knew there was something in you, waiting to burst out of sonia yew. I'm glad it did. I am honoured to have witness you become a responsible young woman in making. It tickles me when i see you girls do your red indian cheer. yes you girls might have discriminated yourself, but SONIA making cheers? how cool uh?

Joye: Thankyou for being so enthusiastic and mature. Yes. Mature my dear. I've used mature on you. You are just like jean, and i am so glad you've learnt something. once again, its that magic. Thankyou for always supporting me. You might not know, but that little force has pushed me to where i am today. Thankyou for that silent support, cos i know even if i gave the weirdest, most unbelievable idea, I know you will eventually be there to give it a try. thankyou.

Esther: Thankyou for being that wholesome girl you've always been. You've been to plentiful amount of camp and dance camp was definately too light on you. thankyou for playing through, giving your support. it brings a smile on my face. Thankyou for being so on whenever i need people for support. thankyou!

Elysia : Thankyou for just being you. thankyou in everyway and every how. You know me best and it brings me great comfort to know you're right behind me whenever im helpless. You're always there to do the shittiest job available for me just cos you know im about to cry. Thankyou for telling me everything is okay, and helping me pull everything back when im lost. You might been seen as the blurr, no eq girl. but there's this extensive power in you to console people and make people feel safe. you're a legend. You deserve the limelight, You deserve the praise. Not me.

Peggy: Thankyou for growing up from that spoilt young girl. You are another junior whom i've seen potential in. You almost proved me wrong. It was this close. But you pulled it together ultimately. Im glad i trusted you just once more. All the little things you did for pirates, i've seen them. Thankyou for showing me that you have the qualities for a leader. You're not just that laid back happy-go-lucky girl. you do care. you do care for the weak and those who needed more attention. thankyou!

When you screw up somebody else's O level, the guilt haboured in you is a zillion times stronger than screwing up your own paper.

So that got me thinking, if you were to comfort the person who screwed up some other people's O Level, how are you going to comfort him or her? Of course, you can happily say 'Don't worry about it! It's OKAY..' But what if the person shoots you back with a million dollar question, 'won't you feel as guilty as I am if YOU were ME?'

How in the world can you answer the person? if you say yes, then you no longer have any rights to comfort the person. However, if you were to answer no, there are three possibility to that. One, you aren't thinking when you said it. Two, you're lying. Three, you are a cold and heartless person.

So, what are you?

Next thing to ponder, does the person who semi caused the screw up of the national examinations deserve any comforting?


Okay, too many thoughts processing in my head. I can't think anymore. It is overwhelming me. Have you had those days? Well, I have them every month.